Who am I?

Well, this is an interesting question, and I am going to write about my journey to answer it.

I am a Teacher!  But, that is a title, Who am I?

Yesterday, I sent out a newsletter admitting to myself, that I have been hiding myself.  I feel ready to let my light shine out and share my journey publicly.

Those who know me, have heard me state many times that I am not a writer and I have no desire to write.  The truth in that statement is I am afraid.  Who would be interested in what I write?  Even to publish a newsletter was a struggle.  I look at newsletters I receive and the author has just written their opinion and I am reading it.  Yet, somehow, my opinion doesn’t feel worthy of being read by others. Red Flag!  Once the basic idea was written for a newsletter, then I would reread to make sure it wouldn’t offend anyone, removing content or choosing the politically correct way of saying things.

This blog is feels like it is going to become a jumbled ramble.  I have so many thoughts rattling around in my head.  Writing them here is how I will straighten out the jumble.

As a child, I remember being positive I would have children.  This was not a question or a want, this just was.  After telling this to someone as an adult, they replied “Oh, you wanted to get married”.  I quickly stopped them to clarify.  This is a fact I have known as long as I can remember, even before I understood that it required 2 people to create life.  I knew I would have children, not how many, not whether I would be a single parent or in a relationship, just that I would have children.

At 47, I have 4 children, 2 step-children and 3 grandchildren.  My life is complete?  No, it’s not completes, I am very much alive, but my struggle now is to remember what else I want to accomplish.

 

 

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