Well, this is an interesting question, and I am going to write about my journey to answer it.
I am a Teacher! But, that is a title, Who am I?
Yesterday, I sent out a newsletter admitting to myself, that I have been hiding myself. I feel ready to let my light shine out and share my journey publicly.
Those who know me, have heard me state many times that I am not a writer and I have no desire to write. The truth in that statement is I am afraid. Who would be interested in what I write? Even to publish a newsletter was a struggle. I look at newsletters I receive and the author has just written their opinion and I am reading it. Yet, somehow, my opinion doesn’t feel worthy of being read by others. Red Flag! Once the basic idea was written for a newsletter, then I would reread to make sure it wouldn’t offend anyone, removing content or choosing the politically correct way of saying things.
This blog is feels like it is going to become a jumbled ramble. I have so many thoughts rattling around in my head. Writing them here is how I will straighten out the jumble.
As a child, I remember being positive I would have children. This was not a question or a want, this just was. After telling this to someone as an adult, they replied “Oh, you wanted to get married”. I quickly stopped them to clarify. This is a fact I have known as long as I can remember, even before I understood that it required 2 people to create life. I knew I would have children, not how many, not whether I would be a single parent or in a relationship, just that I would have children.
At 47, I have 4 children, 2 step-children and 3 grandchildren. My life is complete? No, it’s not completes, I am very much alive, but my struggle now is to remember what else I want to accomplish.